Missing Elizabeth

 

 

Today, April 26, 2008 would have been my oldest daughters 30^th birthday. I lost her on June 28, 1986 when she was in a car accident. She was only 8 years old.

 

It seems just like yesterday. She was here, then suddenly gone. I have re-lived her funeral over and over and over. The pain is still all too real. Maybe I’m feeling sorry for myself, but I miss her.

 

I have always wondered what she would be like today. Would she be married and have kids, or would she be a career woman? I do know this; she would have been successful no matter what she did.

 

Even though she was only 8, I was so proud of her. She had blond hair and blue eyes and when she smiled, her eyes almost closed. I know every parent says this about their children, but she was a beautiful little girl. I know she would be a beautiful woman.

 

The years have come and gone so fast since she passed away. My youngest daughter, Tabitha was 4 years old when the accident happened and as of this writing, she is 26 years old.

 

She is married and is a mother of a beautiful little girl. My granddaughter, Madison has blond hair and blue eyes. I think it’s kind of ironic. My son-in-law, Gavin is a great guy and takes care of my daughter and granddaughter.

 

As I write this, I’m trying to find the words to explain how much I love and miss my Elizabeth. I CAN’T find them! Even after all these years it’s still hard to put into words how I feel. I’ve heard that “Time heals all wounds.” Well, I can honestly say that time may ease the wound, but NEVER heals it.

 

I have 3 grandchildren now and I love them all. Spending time with my kids and grandkids is a great blessing, but I still think about Elizabeth. I still can see her smile and hear her laugh.

 

I do thank God for the time that I did have her and I look forward to the day that we’ll be together again. When that time comes and all of my family is re-united, I know the hurt will be gone forever.

 

I know Elizabeth would be so proud of her little sister, Tabitha. I know I am. She has grown to be a business owner as well as a wife and mother. I had 2 daughters, but was only able to walk 1 down the aisle.

 

There are times when I get bitter and angry, wishing I could have done something to stop that accident from happening. I also have to admit that I get angry with God. I know He could have stopped it but didn’t.

 

I have to remind myself that He is bigger than I am and He knows the future better than we know the past. Sometimes it’s hard to trust that He knows what’s best for us and that He has our best interest at heart.

 

I guess that’s part of being human, having to forgive when we don’t feel like it. I have to forgive God and myself. There are no perfect parents, we all make mistakes and I have made more than my share.

 

I have learned a lot over the years and I hope I don’t make the same mistakes again with my remaining children and grandchildren. I pray for strength, wisdom and forgiveness.

 

My wife & I have started our own home business because I now have Parkinson’s disease. Here is where I would put the link to our website, but this is not the time or place for it. If you have read any of my previous blogs, you can find the links there.

 

I don’t want to ramble on, but writing this has helped with the grief I still feel. I thank you for reading this and maybe understanding how I feel. I know I’m not the only parent who ever lost a child, but I will always believe that parents are not supposed to bury their children.

 

I hope that maybe this writing has helped other parents who have lost a child. You are not alone. Remember, we will always have the good memories. Not even death can take them away.

 

I’ll see you soon Elizabeth. I Love You, Dad.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I Dare You

I dare you! Yes, you read that right. I dare you. Now before you go and get mad and try to find me to beat me up, read on. How many successful people do you know personally and do you know how they became successful?

 

Many successful companies were started by people from their homes. Here’s an example. Ewing Kauffman started his company in the basement of his home. Later, he moved to a huge building and used his middle name as the name of his company.

 

You probably know the company he named as Marion Laboratories. He became so successful; he started a professional baseball team in Kansas City. The team is known as the Kansas City Royals.

 

That’s just one example of one man’s vision to be a success in life. There are countless examples of people who wanted success so badly, that they did what others didn’t do. They all took action, and put legs to their vision.

 

I’m sure they all had their fair share of doubters, scoffers and people who made fun of them. Did that stop them? NO WAY! All companies were started by people who had a vision.

 

Now, my question to you is; Do You Have A Vision? A vision to be successful and make more money than your current boss makes? If not, I dare you! I dare you to think outside of your current situation.

 

I dare you to think about all that you could do with your family, your friends and not have to worry about how much time you spend doing what you want, when you want, with who you want, for as long as you want and not have to think about how much money you spend, because you make more money working from home than you make working for a boss.

 

I dare you to think about how nice it would be to wake up when you want to and not have to wake up to an alarm clock. I dare you to think about how nice it would be not to have to go outside to warm up your car and clean off the snow, before you drive to work.

 

Mom’s, I dare you to think about how nice it would be to be at home when your kids get home from school. I dare you to think about being able to raise your children instead of a baby sitter doing it or shuffling them off to a day care center.

 

Dad’s, I dare you to think about being able to spend more time with your wife and kids at home rather than spending your time with a boss, who doesn’t really care about your home life. The boss just wants the job done, period.

 

I dare you to think about working at home. I dare you to think about working for yourself. I dare you to want to be successful working at home. I dare you to think about retiring young enough to enjoy your retirement.

 

Now that I hopefully have you thinking, here’s something else to think about. If you do decide to work for yourself at home, where do you start? WE HAVE THE ANSWER!  

 

We have a business that you can plug into, to teach you how to be a successful home business owner. We provide goods and services that people want, need and desire, and you can do the same.

 

 You CAN have success. You can see your dreams come true. Go to the website to get more information about home based businesses. I DARE YOU!

 

 

 

 

John & Caroline have 3 children & 3 grandchildren. They have started their own home business so they can spend more time with their family.

 

 

 

 

http://www.homebusinesswithsuccess.com

 

 

 

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